Monday, April 22, 2013

Be greater.

Last week, I spent a few days feeling very overwhelmed.  But here's how the week started.

Adisson and I got up early on Monday to get his permanent cast.
He looks so silly sometimes!
He chose his favorite color, red!

Adam stayed home with the little boys since they aren't allowed in the clinic.  We got back home as quickly as we could so he could head into work.  He reminded me to find some coverage of the marathon in Boston because a few of the guys from his shop were running!  His shop isn't very big so they all know each other really well.  I spent Monday cleaning, with a little help...

My little boys helping mop my bathroom.  :)
And then remembered to check the race updates again a little after 3:00.  And what I saw on TV broke my I could feel it tearing into pieces.  

And now, when I tell you how I felt on that afternoon, I'm reminded again of the many, many people whose lives were broken that day.  People there to embrace something that probably started as a hobby and then became something they just had to do...just run.  People there cheering on 26,000+ runners...strangers...but there all day cheering and screaming for them to stay the course, to not give up, to keep on going when they likely wanted to quit.  And then.......

I know I'll never understand why people hurt others.  I'll never understand taking what anger you have and casting it out upon so many just to make them hurt.  The following days of panic and uncertainty were difficult for me to handle and I'm nowhere near Boston.  So I just prayed.  

And I'll continue to do so.  I watched the news very intently on Friday night so I'm aware that those responsible are either deceased or in custody, so the threat from those people is over, but the hurt and pain they inflicted on so many will never be completely gone.  

We did have school last week, even when I had a hard time turning off the news or looking at pictures of the mayhem.  I feel like we're almost getting there with our test prep.  I feel like it's a slooooow and steady situation but we keep on trying, we keep on keepin' on.  :) 

Last week we talked about fractions, multiplication, decimals, and briefly ventured into our algebra curriculum.  He's getting a little better every day.  We've focused A LOT on math and a little on language arts (by playing hig pig games) as we get ready for his end of year testing and not much else.  Fortunately, we're doing a lot of science in Cub Scouts right now.  :)  I hate testing.  I hate the pressure it puts him under and I hate the fact that he feels like he has to score perfectly on his test because I don't expect that.  I just want him to do his best...and we'll go from there.  

Zander has been spending some extra time with his online learning lately.  Because I work with Adisson on my computer, it has freed up the kids computer so Zander has been taking advantage.  He's moving along with his lessons, though sometimes I have to remind him to go to the next one and not to keep repeating the same one even if it's fun. :)  He's still working on reading, of course.  I'd like to have some time to get some activity bags set up for him, but I feel like I'm burning both ends of the candle right now.  And our calendar for the next few MONTHS is going to be INTENSE.  

Jaxon still hates the alphabet.  I'm not kidding, if you even start to sing the ABC's, he freaks out and yells.  He's so much fun.  However, I know he KNOWS some letters.  I know this because the other day, he snuck onto his brother's Minecraft game online and renamed some stuff using his name.  I called Adam over so he could see Jax finding all of the letters to his name, without help!  I was so excited!! (Big brother not so much!)  It's something and I take what I can get around here.

This weekend was a busy one.  I volunteered for another organization.  I'm pretty busy with Cub Scouts, and homeschooling, and housekeeping, and trying to stay healthy and decided that wasn't enough.  So I said yes to a volunteer position through the local animal rescue.  They need someone to visit their booth at the antique mall to make sure it looks nice, organized, and ensure items are priced to sell.  The initial time commitment for me this weekend has been a rather large one and I almost feel like I regret saying yes.  Hopefully, I'll get the big stuff done and it will level off a little for me.   Otherwise, it might be more than I can say yes to right now.

This upcoming week promises to be another exciting one.  I have my monthly blood treatment tomorrow morning.  I'm heading to a homeschool co-op open house and then immediately to treatment followed by some shopping before coming home to get some work done in Zander's room (because that project was started TWO WEEKS AGO and I still don't have it done).  We're going to spend this week on math again and then on Friday, Adisson is going to take a practice standardized test.  From there, we'll be able to see what he needs to work on before his big test.  

Oh and our first camping trip of the year is this weekend.  At a camporee that Adam is putting together for our entire Cub Scout Pack.  So just add that to the already long list of stuff we need to do.  :)  Well, it's either going to keep me young or make me old.  I'm pretty sure I already know what direction that is going for me.  Anyway...
My parting words tonight come from the comedian Patton Oswalt.  He may not be someone I'll quote again but his words in light of the tragedy in Boston were a great comfort to many.  Among other things, he said the following:

"...When you spot violence, or bigotry, or intolerance or fear or just garden-variety misogyny, hatred or ignorance, just look it in the eye and think, "The good outnumber you, and we always will."

And that's what I have to keep reminding myself.  There will always be evil but the good in others will always be greater.  

Note: Everyone from Adam's workplace is safe, ok, and uninjured.  Thank God.  

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